December 2009
finally taken
thank you santa, i got what i wished for
after i stopped seeing him, he got ugly.
loving tumblr more and more everyday, thank you mixtapes(:
REGIFTING 101
Tip #2: Dad clueless as to what you really wanted? Send that sweater you know you hate but your friend from your 5th period class will love! Re-Wrap and hand it to her when you get back from break and say “I found this while I was on vacation and I had to get it for you!”
what songs should i get?
REGIFTING 101
my step sister inspired me to begin this series of Regifting 101, hell she does it to me every year i might as well write a book, but a blog will do.
TIP #1: Gift Card to a place you don’t want? Cut off the top that says your name and it’s from you great aunt Kelly and leave the part that has the dollar amount. Now you’ve passed off that card to Macy’s you know...
True Love (Pt. 3)
M., i think we could have had it all. i sit here, illuminated by candle and computer light but i know you brightened my future. i don’t care what my friends say anymore and that’s what changed. but then you were with her and i couldn’t do a single thing about it. and now you’re not and i know you don’t agree to the terms, but i did have my chance and i lost it.
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MAKES ME THINK OF YOU
ponchos
cameras
urban outfitters
texting
passion pit
crystal castles
itunes
mixed tapes
poetry
heartaches
drugs
tea
sex
facebook
blogging
vampire weekend
driving
sleeping
Listen
you need to type slower, talk less, and think more because right now you don’t make much sense.
im surprised no one died out there
if i got up every time i fall
im sure id be standing tall
but since it didn’t work like that
here i am, fallen flat.
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my cousin T. is in from Vegas for the next two weeks. my family has abandoned me for him. i feel like the adopted child when i’m the actual daughter.
my cat is entertaining me(:
may i please fly?
http://www.formspring.me/willowrae →
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what would you do if i died?
well this is the song he dedicated to me after i...
When an atheist sneezes, what are you supposed to say to them? “uh, when you die, nothing happens” ?
i don’t know what to do.
i feel like i’ve gambled with two lives and lost both. i had something but because i wanted the greater prize i fell lower than i ever started. i knew what i had, and then lost it in a flash all to stay true to the adrenaline rush.
its almost like i’m heart broken, but i’m so numb to it. i’m not letting emotion show through, because i know...
going to sanfran today, haven't decided if thats a...
i want to do an add on blog too.
wishing on 11:11 is bullshit. if anything i think it’s counter productive.
each time i wished for someone it just pushed us apart. damn 11:11.
i want to cry
him: aww im on your mind? and what about me is on your mind?
her: hmm idk if i should say
him: and why is that
her: because i don't want to make things weird(:
him: it wont, but if youre gonna tell me you like me i'm not sure how ill act. i liked you so fucking much but you never showed me any affection at all, when i called you hun or sweetie you would get all weirded out or when i called you beautiful so idk how i'll react, i don't even know if i wanna be with you anymore, you never made me feel liked... i always thought you wanted nothing to do with me, you know? ):
her: but i did, and idk its like right when i felt it you were with your girl.
him: i never thought you would feel it thats why i went out with ------.. why do you like me though you said we would be nothing more than friends?
her: look things change, and i realized what i lost, and i realized that you got me, more than anyone has ever understood me, and you didn't even realize it. and then as time passed i knew that you weren't perfect and didn't want to be and you made me think. it's a weird thing to say but you know me really well, and you know how to make me think.
him: but why do you like me, how did you change?
her: look if you don't feel the same just let me know
him: no its not that i dont feel the same way hun, its just i never imagined you would want to be with me so i tried to push my feelings for you away. at one time you were like everything i wanted, i'm still in a bit of shock and i'm not sure if i feel the same about you thats all.
her: alright
him: ... ): just alright?
her: am i supposed to fight for this or just let it go? i obviously had my chance, had it twice.
him: ): its not that at all. im not a person who says shit like you had your chance. if i felt like i did before then there would be no hesitation whatsoever. but i don't i wish i did but i just don't anymore/ and i wouldn't want to get involved just because you like me, i would need to feel like i did. and i don't. i'm sorry.